self-discovery

  • The Goose is Getting Fat

    I’m not exercising much, last week just two days at the gym, this week I am…

  • Catching up

    Last night my husband and I talked; we do most nights. We talked about how he…

  • LGBTQ+ History Month

    LGBTQ+ History Month

    Last night I did another “systems test”. It was a little bit furtive as my husband…

  • Back to the Gym

    Before I start today, as I went to sleep last night I suddenly became aware of…

  • Feeling Low

    Well, if I thought my tummy troubles were over, I was mistaken! I went to the…

  • Beyond Reflections

    Four foul fluid fecal evacuations yesterday. One of them was very nearly messy – I got…

  • Weird sex dreams

    I’m having this most peculiar sex dream. I very rarely remember my dreams. I even more…

  • Off to Mexico Tomorrow! Questions I Asked Myself

    Tomorrow I start my journey to Mexico to be castrated and finally become what need to…

  • Trying to share excitement

    The other day I said to my husband that it was really hard for me to…

  • Understandingy my fear

    Last week I went through a period of feeling absolutely shit-a-brick terrified. I tried to work…

  • Identity

    For most of my adult life (I came out when I was 20), I have identified…

  • Healthy Doubt

    In my last part I wrote how doubt would mug me at night when I was…

  • Sleepless Nights

    I’m really struggling to sleep at the moment. I have been struggling for months now. I…

  • Last Times?

    It’s three weeks today that I’ll be having my operation, and increasingly my mind is turning…

  • Understanding Betrayal

    My husband and I have talked most days now for months; in this last month I…