self-discovery

  • Sixth Sense

    Check In Yet another rotten night’s sleep with really very bad hot flushes. I could not…

  • The Deep Psychology of BDSM and Kink

    The Deep Psychology of BDSM and Kink

    I started reading this book while I was in the recovery centre in Mexico. I got…

  • Doctor Cancelled

    Reviewing Monday My husband and I had another good talk about the things I’d raised on…

  • Guilt vs Shame

    As I continue to go through a difficult time in my marriage, feeling low and tired.…

  • Seeing myself as I am

    A mirror breaks This journey doesn’t end with me having my testicles removed: it has started…

  • Ten Years of Gay Marriage in the UK

    Harrumph. The Hot Flushes Return Last night’s sleep was greatly disturbed by hot flushes, after four…

  • Thinking About Eunuch Community Resources

    A New Discovery About My Body Well, just when I think I’m used to my new…

  • My Last Counselling Session

    To Much Like Hard Work? Last night’s system test was hard work. I was tired and…

  • Coming Unravelled

    And there goes another! Last night, just before bed, the first stitches fell out. Well, I…

  • Pride

    I’m Still Gay A nice meal with good company and friends rather spoilt by hot flushes…

  • Blowing Hot And Cold

    I might still be able to get it up, but I can’t get comfortable at night:…

  • The Goose is Getting Fat

    I’m not exercising much, last week just two days at the gym, this week I am…

  • Catching up

    Last night my husband and I talked; we do most nights. We talked about how he…

  • LGBTQ+ History Month

    LGBTQ+ History Month

    Last night I did another “systems test”. It was a little bit furtive as my husband…

  • Back to the Gym

    Before I start today, as I went to sleep last night I suddenly became aware of…