self-discovery

  • Minefields of emotion

    Minefields of emotion

    The content describes a night of grief and memories, followed by a morning of reflection on…

  • Talking with my dad

    Unsatisfied I had crazy self-harm thoughts running around my head before I went to sleep. Actually,…

  • Fifty years ago Waterloo was number one in the UK charts

    Fifty years ago Waterloo was number one in the UK charts

    My my According to my mum, I was nearly called “Nigel” because there was a single…

  • And I’m feelin’ good

    And I’m feelin’ good

    Daily check-in No sleepers last night and only slightly disturbed by warm flushes a couple of…

  • Sixth Sense

    Check In Yet another rotten night’s sleep with really very bad hot flushes. I could not…

  • The Deep Psychology of BDSM and Kink

    The Deep Psychology of BDSM and Kink

    I started reading this book while I was in the recovery centre in Mexico. I got…

  • Doctor Cancelled

    Reviewing Monday My husband and I had another good talk about the things I’d raised on…

  • Guilt vs Shame

    As I continue to go through a difficult time in my marriage, feeling low and tired.…

  • Seeing myself as I am

    A mirror breaks This journey doesn’t end with me having my testicles removed: it has started…

  • Ten Years of Gay Marriage in the UK

    Harrumph. The Hot Flushes Return Last night’s sleep was greatly disturbed by hot flushes, after four…

  • Thinking About Eunuch Community Resources

    A New Discovery About My Body Well, just when I think I’m used to my new…

  • My Last Counselling Session

    To Much Like Hard Work? Last night’s system test was hard work. I was tired and…

  • Coming Unravelled

    And there goes another! Last night, just before bed, the first stitches fell out. Well, I…

  • Pride

    I’m Still Gay A nice meal with good company and friends rather spoilt by hot flushes…

  • Blowing Hot And Cold

    I might still be able to get it up, but I can’t get comfortable at night:…