diary

  • Early bed without a guilt trip.

    Early bed without a guilt trip.

    I had a long Friday night. A busy Saturday day. It’s Saturday night. I’m tired. I…

  • The Postulant

    The Postulant

    Today I met up with a fellow who had been suffering from dysphoria for a very…

  • The post-mortem begins

    The post-mortem begins

    It felt like there was a lot to talk about in counselling: it’s not everyday that…

  • Paperwork

    Paperwork

    Last week I had an email informing me that my husband was starting divorce proceedings against…

  • Beta-Blocked Below the Belt

    Beta-Blocked Below the Belt

    I’ve been having a bit of trouble with down there lately. It’s not been working properly.…

  • Sun Salutations and Self-Trust

    Sun Salutations and Self-Trust

    I have felt so tired lately. Last night I went to bed even earlier, but it…

  • Knowing me, knowing you

    Knowing me, knowing you

    Having the house to myself, I’m tending to finishing jobs, repairing things, and tidying stuff. I’m…

  • I used to think love was enough

    I used to think love was enough

    My husband sent me a message today asking for tech support with his soundbar and printer.…

  • No option for sadness

    No option for sadness

    So. He has done it. He has applied for a divorce. I guess that’s the right…

  • Madam! Behave!

    Madam! Behave!

    I am loving the social life I’m developing since living on my own, but there is…

  • Weekend of Faces

    Weekend of Faces

    What a busy weekend! Full of socialising… and I am pooped now! Friday was cinema night…

  • Letting the grief breathe

    Letting the grief breathe

    I was thinking of bringing my counselling to an end. Things are peaceful in the house,…

  • The abdication of home

    The abdication of home

    Having the house to myself has left me realising just how detached I was from the…

  • My Evenings, My Self

    Since living on my own, I’ve felt free to spend time on things I enjoy –…

  • Finding My Own Vertical

    Finding My Own Vertical

    As I get better, I feel safer doing more and more — and some of those…