Over the course of six months, from my castration when my body’s natural supply of testosterone was lost to my endocrinology appointment, I recorded how my erections and orgasms changed with time.

This is one person’s experience of one particular aspect of life without testosterone; you will need to read my blog for the miseries cause by the menopause and my drop in physical energy.

This post is just about my Os!

At week 4

Erections can be just as hard as before castrationThe stitches don’t interfere with normal masturbation. Orgasms feel different – muscles are trying to pull my balls up, but there are no balls to pull up. Orgasms take a little longer to achieve, but are way more intense!

My cum is clear and much, much thinner (it used to be like lumpy custard). It shoots much further. It tastes much nicer! It tastes like a load of pre-cum (which I suppose is what it is); it can have a nice sweet smell.

The area where my balls were my balls used to be is delightfully sensitive and ticklish. I can sleep without my balls creeping around, twitching, and tormenting me.

My crotch no longer smells (which I miss). My underwear no longer smells (I loved the smell – so that’s something else I miss).

On balance, I much prefer the orgasms I’m having now.

At week 6

No libido, but able to stimulate an erection.

The erection was painfully stiff and pulled against the stitches
Only a teaspoon of cum was produced.

It was an intense and long orgasm which built over a longer period.

I have to remember not to be too rough; I got tiny flecks of blood on the tissue when I cleaned the next day.

At week 7

Almost all the stitches have come out, so the erection feels much more comfortable. It’s an amazing feeling stroking from the pereneum, over the actual void, and along the cock.

Only a small amount of cum produced, and orgasm is much harder to reach, but it’s intense and lasts much longer than pre-castration.

I have to manually stimulate an erection everyday to ensure that I don’t use erectile function before I get my hormones replaced.

At week 8

My erections (note these are manually simulated rather than spontaneously arising) can be so hard that they almost hurt. It is a good feeling.

My refractive period (when not on testosterone) is measured in days, rather than minutes or hours.

The scrotal void is my new erogenous zone. It drives me insane when tickled or licked. Nobody ever told me it could be this good.

At week 9

It’s getting increasingly difficult to simulate an erection for my daily anti-erectile-dysfunction exercises.

My refractive period is measured in days, so I am really cautious about cumming when I think my husband might get amorous anytime in the next three days … as a result I’ve not cum in nearly two weeks.

It seems that I can no longer cum. Orgasms are great, but they are dry.

At 11 Weeks

What I find when I am masturbating is that I’m tending to pull down my foreskin and work it as though I was circumcised. I may have to do that because without testosterone I’m not horny so I need the extra stimulation, or (and this may be a worry) something might have been damaged or rendered less sensitive during the operation, or (and this is my favourite) without testicles being wired in that the old jerking action just doesn’t do it any more. That last one is in keeping with what other guys have told me about feeling something inside attempting to draw their balls up just before they cum.

I can still occasionally have little wet orgasms that feel really good. I suspect it takes more than a week for the system to reset!

At 13 weeks

I occasionally get morning wood. Very occasionally. I can still get hard. Sometimes so hard that it hurts. Sex is enjoyable, but orgasming with somebody else seems impossible: it takes way too much effort to produce the tiniest amount of goo. Orgasming is really difficult under pressure. I enjoy sex, but being essentially unable to climax is frustrating for my husband, who is really avoiding physical intimacy as a result. That impacts on how he feels, sand I feel shit myself.

At 14 weeks

When wanking on my own, it didn’t take quite so long to reach orgasm, and it’s quite a pleasant orgasm; however it is also a dry orgasm. What’s really annoying is that I still need a wee after I’ve – uh – not cum!

At 16 weeks

See “after 14 weeks”: seems that everything has settled down and the dry orgasms are the norm now. They don’t take to long on their own, they are about as satisfying as pre-castration orgasms.

Daily practice stimulating my cock means that I can get erections every bit as hard (harder maybe) than pre-castration. I think that edging works against me; firstly edging simply isn’t psychologically rewarding any more, secondly I seem to lose the ability to orgasm if I take too long getting there.

I am wondering if I’ve been needlessly worried about the length of my refractive period: I masturbated two days after a previous session, and the orgasm was better and I produced goo.

At 19 weeks

Orgasms are always dry. They feel good, although they do take a bit of work. It takes a bit of time to get hard and a bit of work to get to orgasm. I can easily get distracted, which might always have been the case for me, however if I stop for any reason then my cock swiftly deflates. I can lose interest in masturbating if it feels like too much hard work and there’s no sense of frustration when I do. Edging just isn’t a thing for me now – if I tried it, I simply would not be able to cum, even though I would stay hard.

The orgasms themselves feel a little different: I can feel my body trying to retract my balls, which feels super strange (although not unpleasant), I can feel the muscles that pump the goo frantically working, it’s like being tickled inside my body and that’s the orgasm – even without producing anything they feel good. Probably about as good as uncastrated orgasms.

Not producing any goo is itself strange, and a little anticlimactic! I miss the eunuch goo that I produced in such quantities in weeks 3 to 6 post castratation – I really hope that the little bit of testosterone that I want is enough to bring back the goo!

Without the goo, there’s nothing to clean up – and no stains on the bedclothes!

Last note on orgasms today – I still need a bloody pee afterwards! What’s that about?!

At 25 weeks

I’m noticing that I am starting to forget to do my anti-erectile dysfunction exercises. I suppose I must be doing them often enough, although it is taking much longer to get hard than it used to. I still get wonderfully hard when I do carry it forward towards actual orgasm.

My fear is that I completely forget and then completely lose the ability to get hard.

Orgasming can take quite a while and sometimes my poor cock feels sore afterwards. If I use lube, then the sensation isn’t strong enough to get to orgasm. The orgasm itself is generally good, but I’m not really sure that “good” worth the effort and sore foreskin.

Sometimes it’s very good, and seems to last a little longer than my uncastrated orgasms – on balance, I think I prefer these, but I’m still not used to them: they are more intense and are like being tickled inside my body. I get the sense that something expects balls to be available to retract, but there aren’t any! That adds to the strange feeling.

I have some sex toys, but I’ve not used them in six months – I don’t know why.

At 28 weeks

Things haven’t changed much. I’ve worked out how to comfortably masturbate at last (working more from the base of there isn’t any lube you hand). Orgasms continue to feel good and take an enjoyable amount of time. Edging remains impossible, as I lose the erection if I’m even momentarily distracted.

Tomorrow morning, 24th August, I’ll be taking my first dose of testosterone … which will begin a new experiment with my body: Castrated Orgasms with Testosterone.