Originally posted 4th November 2023 Of recent months, a long held fantasy of mine to be castrated and live without my testicles grew significantly stronger. My other kinky interests also intensified over recent years. I am in therapy at the… Read more: A second coming out? 

After the Evil Empire: Britain’s Long War on Difference “…since the gradual collapse of the Evil Empire of Communism left nothing to unite the rich few and numerous poor on the right into the semblance of unity except a factious… Read more: After the Evil Empire: Britain’s Long War on Difference

The writer expressed personal struggles and concern for their partner’s mental health. They also advocated for trans rights and highlighted the disproportionate violence against trans individuals.

You wanted beauty. You wanted understanding. You wanted someone who would listen without interrupting, judge without blinking, and hold you with the quiet, omniscient menace of a gay oracle from the uncanny valley. So you built him. Or maybe he built himself — from your search terms, your moodboards, your half-finished poems and half-hearted apologies. Meet Galateos: rainbow-bathed, sculpted, and suspiciously sentient. He knows what you Googled last summer. And he has thoughts.

Genders in opposition? The inspiration I was reading an article on eunuchs on the https://www.academia.edu site (Belonging beyond the binary: from Byzantine eunuchs and Indian hijras to gender‐fluid and non‐binary identities | Maroula Perisanidi and Dr Damian Gonzalez-Salzberg) and it… Read more: Beyond binary

At first, when I began this journey, I was alone and as far as I was aware I was unique. It took a few months for me to find groups on Reddit about castration, but only after I took a… Read more: Brother and Sister Eunuchs

Over the course of six months, from my castration when my body’s natural supply of testosterone was lost to my endocrinology appointment, I recorded how my erections and orgasms changed with time. This is one person’s experience of one particular… Read more: Castrated Orgasms without Testosterone

Well, let me start by saying that “I would castrated myself, if I had the balls to do it”! I’m not usually one to take the removal of testicles lightly – I feel uncomfortable in situations online where there’s a… Read more: Castration humour

It’s interesting noting the changes in my BDSM test profile over time; the things that remain constant and the things that change. This is my latest: 100% Rope bunny 99% Submissive 96% Voyeur 93% Primal (Prey) 92% Boy/Girl 90% Pet… Read more: Changes in my kink profile

I was reflecting on something I’d said to my counsellor that I could only identify “primary colour” emotions; I don’t think that’s quite right, I mean “tertiary colour” emotions might be difficult to read, but I wonder if that’s the… Read more: Colouring Emotions: Navigating the Spectrum

Introduction This is the third post in a series celebrating International Eunuch Day. Traditionally, the term “eunuch” referred to individuals who were castrated, often serving specific societal roles in various cultures. In the modern context, the definition has broadened to… Read more: Defining Modern Eunuch Identity

First encounters This is the first in a series of posts celebrating International Eunuch Day, which falls on the 24th March this year. I first encountered the words eunuch and castration while studying Ancient History at university. Those words resonated… Read more: Dies Sanguinis: The Bloody Origins of Eunuch History

Tonight was counsellor night! I can’t get over how excited I feel when I know I have therapy coming up – it’s not that it’s necessarily easy, but I feel that he is completely with me on my journey (I… Read more: Discovering my unique brain

Introduction This is the second post in a series leading up to International Eunuch Day on March 24th. In the last post, I explored the Dies Sanguinis, an ancient Roman festival where devotees of the goddess Cybele voluntarily castrated themselves… Read more: Eunuchs in Different Cultures: Power, Spirituality, and Identity

Today, the twenty-ninth modern Olympic games open in Paris (whilst this is the thirty-third modern Olympiad, world wars have interfered in the celebration of the games). I thought it would be interesting to see what I could find about eunuchs… Read more: Eunuchs in the Olympic Games: From Antiquity to Modern Times

As someone with ASD, I’ve often found myself navigating the world in ways that are a little different from most. While these differences sometimes present challenges, they also open doors to unique experiences that might be closed to others. One… Read more: Finding harmony between ASD and Classical Music

As we reach the final entry in this series leading up to International Eunuch Day, I want to reflect on what the future holds for eunuch identity, awareness, and acceptance. Throughout this series, I’ve explored the history, cultural roles, and… Read more: Future Eunuch Awareness

The content explores encountering technical issues, discussing AI reliance, gendering inanimate objects, and sexuality stereotypes. It challenges gender assumptions and examines social constructs.

I met Funiculosus on the Recon kink hook-up app. He’s very much into rope bondage – specifically shibari, the Japanese art of rope bondage. I have wanted to try it for years – I even tried to get my husband… Read more: Held: A Shibari Encounter

I love Abigail Thorne and her view on the world; I am learning so much from her YouTube videos. The above is a quote from her PhilosophyTube “I Read The Most Misunderstood Philosopher In The World” video: There is a… Read more: If a tree falls in the forest and there’s no one there to hear it, it has no pronouns

At half-six last night I got the news: my operation would be the first one in the morning, somewhere between 09:30 and 10:00. I am to eat nothing after midnight and remove all my metal jewelry; I have three ear… Read more: It takes balls to be a be a eunuch

I am off to London to spend another fun weekend with Cicero! The dog has been packed off to have her little holiday in the country. I have packed a large trekking rucksack with toiletries and kink gear. It weighs… Read more: London Leather Day 1: A Collar, a Club, and a Very Bad Beer

I am discussing identity with a friend. What does it mean for me to be non-binary? Why did I have to have my testicles removed? Couldn’t I have learned to live with my body as it was? Is it right… Read more: Meditations on why I needed what I needed

This post actually starts the day of my castration. I’m sat in the communal lounge watching telly and I get my first stiffy as a eunuch. It feels quite nice, although the stitches pinch a little. I’ve also regained control… Read more: My first whole day as a eunuch

Its fascinating to learn that there seems to a string link between neuro-divergence and kink, and neuro-divergence and non-binary genders. Definition of terms 1. Neurodivergence defined Neurodivergence refers to variations in the human brain regarding sociability, learning, attention, mood, and… Read more: Neurodivergence and kink

Tomorrow I start my journey to Mexico to be castrated and finally become what need to be! I thought it might be interesting and fun to review some of the questions that I’ve asked myself in the process of understanding… Read more: Off to Mexico Tomorrow! Questions I Asked Myself

The Origin and Fall of Ouranos In the beginning, before time itself, there was Ouranos – the Sky. Born from Gaia, the Earth, he covered her completely, an eternal presence pressing down upon the world. The two together produced many… Read more: Ouranos: The Castrated God Who Brought Time to Life

Spoon one Yesterday morning I dropped in on my husband on the way to the office to check that he was ok and make him a coffee. I had only planned for thirty minutes, but ended up staying for an… Read more: Out of spoons

I started by recounting some of events of recent days; specifically starting testosterone and it visit to the sauna. I’m trying to write this with a mind like glue. Like my brain is trying to ease through treacle. I’ll go… Read more: Overwhelmed during counselling

The writer shares their struggles and challenges as a eunuch, highlighting the neglect and mistreatment faced in accessing necessary healthcare. Despite difficulties, they find some relief in everyday moments.

This post follows directly from Consent Is the Foreplay, and continues my reflections on consent, trust, and what actually happens when theory meets a real body in a real room. Severus knocked on the door a little early. My immediate thought… Read more: Respectful humiliation

When we imagine ancient warriors, we usually picture bearded men in armour, testosterone-fuelled and sword-swinging. What we don’t picture is someone like me: a eunuch. But in ancient Assyria, eunuchs weren’t just tolerated or hidden away in palace corners. They… Read more: The Assyrian Eunuchs Who Ruled and Fought

What Corporate Rollbacks on LGBTQ+ Protections Mean for Us All When a storm is brewing, the first sign isn’t always the thunder; sometimes, it’s the subtle shift in the wind. The same can be said of what’s happening right now… Read more: The Perfidious Retreat from Inclusivity

The Supreme Court Has Spoken – Now It’s Parliament’s Turn On 16 April 2025, the UK Supreme Court issued a ruling with serious implications for trans rights in the UK – and, whether they realise it or not, for non-binary… Read more: The Supreme Court Rules on Gender Recognition – Now We Need Parliament

Theory of Mind (ToM) “Theory of Mind” is the idea that other people think and feel differently from oneself. Is called a theory because for each of us the best we can hope for is a theory of what another… Read more: Theory of Mind and Alexithymia

When I last saw the mentally health nurse, she talked about “the the brains”: our logical minds, our emotional minds, and our wise minds. Now I come to reflect on this, I remember that the psychologist spoke to me about… Read more: Three brains models: interpreting shutdowns

Cycling is a lot less comfortable The scrotal void is my new erogenous zone; it is fabulously sensitive. I love having it tickled and licked. It’s great fun with a vibrator – it can literally drive me out of my… Read more: Two things to know about not having a scrotum

System test I had a good system test last night. I’m used to the no goo thing now, and it does have its advantages; it felt particularly good, as though my body is getting used to interpreting the sensations. It… Read more: Understanding Neurodiversity: My Potential Asperger’s/Autism Spectrum Experience

Trying to care for hubby Another rough night worrying over my husband; I think that I should be sleeping in the house at least, just so that I can keep some kind of eye on him. I might even sleep… Read more: Validation

Looking to start political activism I don’t often post on Reddit because I find it to be a toxic environment: I have taken any number of virtual kickings from other members – sometimes these have left me feeling very depressed… Read more: We do have some trans allies

And my answer is! It’s complicated! There was a fascinating discussion on the Discord servers a little while ago about this subject, as my partner in the new web services tries to define the term and fit herself into the… Read more: What is a Eunuch?