I had a sleepless night following an emotional evening with my husband. I then had a real struggle to get ready for work in the morning.

And when I opened my email, I read this:

The court has certified that it is satisfied that the applicant is entitled to a Conditional Order of Divorce.

In the middle of April my marriage will formally enter the last few months of its turbulent life.

I feel … beaten.

Physically, emotionally, and spiritually.