After realising that I was simply horny yesterday, I had the good fortune to be approached by someone inviting me to a FOURSOME!

Two tops, and one other bottom.

This could be fun!

Clearly a no strings attached gangbang!

I spent a bit of time doing some “housework” (being a bottom is hard work and requires investment to make it a pleasant experience for all involved).

I put some energetic and uplifting music on in the car, and allowed Señora Google to direct me.

The address was a tower block in an area of town even more rundown than my own.

I rang the bell and was buzzed in.

The inside of the block seemed well looked after.

I found the correct door and knocked. It was opened by a skinny, older guy in his underwear. Not a problem with that considering what I was there for!

But the flat smelt overpoweringly of cigarettes. There was a beer can on the side, I was driving so I couldn’t have joined in the drinks anyway – but it can be difficult to be the only sober one in a group.

I am afraid my immediate impression of the fellow who opened the door was “Cletus” from the Simpsons.

I’m not proud that was the association that my mind made, but it was there and I really didn’t feel turned on.

The fellow I’d been messaging was naked on the sofa getting into the mood.

“Hello sexy!” He said – I appreciated that, but I found that I couldn’t reply – the setup just wasn’t doing it for me.

I put my bag down and thought about taking off my clothes – this was, I thought, what I wanted.

Except it wasn’t. Something was off and I didn’t want to play here, with these people.

It wasn’t because it was, or felt, seedy – seedy sex can be super fun!

I couldn’t completely put my finger on it, but then I didn’t have to.

“I’m sorry, mate,” I said, “I’m just not feeling it – I’m gonna go.”

“Ok, no problem,” said the guy on the sofa that I’d been chatting with online.

For the moment, I am not going to analyse this – but I will recognise something: after thirty years since my first ever unwanted sexual encounter, I have finally said “no” to sex that I don’t want.