I’ve been feeling… horny… lately.

It’s not something that my existing relationships feel able to provide – and I don’t want to ask for fear of breaking a working dynamic.

I’ve been cruising various dating apps looking for a sexual connection. A playmate, a friend with benefits.

I know that I’m not looking for a Relationship. I am far from ready for that – indeed I realise that I don’t want that (well, not now anyways).

But I do want a fuck.

Sorry for the language!

Sometimes just that raw physical connection is what the soul craves.

There is something wonderfully liberating about realising that wanting sexual intimacy doesn’t necessarily mean wanting emotional intimacy – or a relationship.

I have toys, but they are like trying to tickle yourself – nice but not the same as somebody else ticking you!

Oh well! Such is life!

As ABBA once sang (almost): “Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! A man before 7pm because I need time to wind down before going to bed.”