I’m slowly getting better, listening to my body and physical heart (to distinguish it from the emotional core). I’m walking further, probably further than I should given the recovery instructions that I was given – but I am giving myself plenty of time to recover afterwards.

I’ve had quite a bit of interest on the hookup apps over the last few weeks. A few I have been upfront with: I have had a heart attack and can’t go anywhere for a few weeks. Some I haven’t. I am not sure why. Well, I suppose that I’m afraid that they’ll lose interest. One fellow I think I’ve managed to retain interest from – hopefully I’ll be well enough to actually do something next weekend.

Experimenting on my own, things still work – erectile dysfunction is a real worry on these medications. I’m finding that my heart feels less panicked when I get a bit excited, which is a promising sign.

Since my surgery, erections have been no less easy than before my castration, however reaching climax has become a little harder – which is no bad thing because I always came very quickly. When I was young, that would have meant the end of any fun I was having, but that’s much less the case now.

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Everyday, I try to extend my limits a little further, so I caught the bus into town. It’s about fifteen minutes to the bus stop, so technically further than I’m supposed to walk. I had a couple of coffees in town, to build in some rest stops.

While I was there, my friend Cicero messaged me to check on progress.

I told him that I’m not allowed sex for another two weeks, making it four when I can eventually get some nooky. He laughed: we’d both survived two months without sex after our surgery. I wasn’t on hormones then, so it was less of an ordeal. He couldn’t leave himself alone! I’m surprised he healed up, but he has healed beautifully. It is wonderful having people who have the same body configuration to share things with.

I cannot wait until I’m fit enough to travel … but I may not be able to drink, and I certainly won’t be able to do poppers! I want to have fun and keep having fun, so I’m going to be as good as I can be at being naughty!