I must say I am getting a lot of sleep at the moment – good quality sleep that isn’t interrupted (much) – just one pee in the night. I keep a glass of water by my bed, so any fluid out and I put some back in again.

What is a concern after yesterday is the way a gentle session with the vibrator left me feeling a little breathless and my heart raced for hours afterwards: clearly my heart isn’t ready for even gentle sex!

But I am sooooo horny!

So I wondered whether, given my privilege of being in control of my testosterone, I could reduce my intake slightly to reduce my libido?

So I did some research…

Firstly, sex, aside from being enjoyable, even solo sex, causes spikes in breathing and heart rate. It’s like exercise.

Secondly, testosterone doesn’t just control libido – it also controls red blood cell production. Too much testosterone can cause too many red blood cells to be produced, which can make the blood “sticky” and cause high blood pressure and heart problems.

Too little testosterone, and the red blood cell count drops.

Why’s that a problem?

And here’s the catch: my heart is damaged. It needs oxygen to heal, to pump, to rebuild. Starving myself of testosterone would only make that harder.

The bottom line is that I must not play with my testosterone myself.

Poo.

Seems that I have to recover the hard way and deal with feeling horny.

It was fun when I used to play with chastity and pretend that I wasn’t allowed to (or couldn’t) cum. Now its a medical necessity: much less fun!

Still, if I take a leaf out of Mary Poppins’ book:

In every job that must be done
There is an element of fun
You find the fun and snap!
The job's a game
And every task you undertake
Becomes a piece of cake
A lark! A spree! It's very clear to see that
A Spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down
...

I wonder if Patricius the Dom might like to help me play … ?