Oct 2024

  • Strong like glass

    Strong like glass

    Broken spirit Last night, I asked my husband if he’d like to talk. He has been…

  • Testavan update

    Testavan update

    I’ve noticed that I get a bit tired and sleepy in the afternoons. I am not…

  • Counselling at a new place

    Counselling at a new place

    Richard, my counsellor, has arranged for us to meet somewhere else. It’s about twenty minutes walk…

  • Castrated Orgasms with Testosterone

    Castrated Orgasms with Testosterone

    First things first 24th August 2024. It’s been nearly seven months since my castration. My orgasms…

  • Hormonal weight changes

    Hormonal weight changes

    A bit flabbier My body has changed a lot in the last year. The most obvious…

  • Nephews are a privilege

    Batman Today I went back to Bristol to spend the day with my two gorgeous nephews.…

  • The price of confession

    The price of confession

    I think that this is really how my husband feels: “Oh Tess, forgiveness does not apply…

  • Paid in chocolate

    I’m irritated I’m still feeling irritated and moody over the way the husband asked me to…

  • Inconvenient shutdowns

    Inconvenient shutdowns

    U-turn More about last night, which proved unexpectedly difficult. I got a text from my husband…

  • Shutdown

    A quick note. Counselling. Husband changed his mind about me having it in the house. Counselling…

  • Mexico Transgender Centre goes to Turkey

    Mexico Transgender Centre goes to Turkey

    A friend of mine, who will be going to the Mexico Transgender Centre for nullification gender…

  • A gap in the definition

    A gap in the definition

    Pumped up These last few days I’ve tried a double pump of Testavan gel. Two pumps…

  • Ten reasons I’m lucky to have my husband

    Ten reasons I’m lucky to have my husband

    I thought that it would be fun and fruitful to list some of the reasons that…

  • Guilty

    Today I have to day off. I have a massage booked later – I wanted a…

  • Farewell my lovely bolthole

    Farewell my lovely bolthole

    Last night Last night wasn’t much better than the previous night. I asked the husband whether…