Semi
I have a number of blog posts prepared on other subjects, such as personal insights, book reviews, kink, and psychological and mystical musings, but there almost always some change in my daily life that seems worthy of note. Today is no exception. After a decent night’s sleep I woke up with a SEMI! The last three nights I’ve had sleepers to help, but I’ve also slept for over eight hours with only the occasional wee visit. I can’t take sleepers everyday.
I’ve been thinking that I don’t get horny, yet last night I felt tinglings and this morning the unmistakable signs of horniness with a semi!
Tip for the day: use scar oil on the itchy skin. I've only been using it a couple of weeks, but the scar oil that I bought from Superdrug for my scrotal scar seems to alleviate the itching I am getting.
Thinking about it, I have had cramp before when I still had my testicles. The bruising from the cramp stopped me running for a few weeks and I had to rest. Perhaps I shouldn’t blame every mishap on low testosterone!
I managed a thirty minute spin at the gym, followed by yoga. I didn’t feel that I had noticeably less stamina than of old. Curious. I also noticed that my scrotal void felt fine during the spin.
Here’s a cute video with Marla (the owner of the facility that I stayed at during my time in Mexico) doing a walk through of the Zen and Healthy Recovery Centre on Instagram:
Coffee with the husband
We started talking about helping with some positive media exposure our community might get soon on the back of the current bad publicity; that’s due to the Eunuch Maker trial – which has been blessedly hidden behind the local elections last week, but will have no such cover next week when the sentences are handed out.
There may be an opportunity for both of us to be interviewed on aspects of becoming and living with a eunuch, and the impact it’s had on our relationship. My husband is not keen.
In fact, it brought up other issues in our relationship that needed talking about. He still has a lot of anger about who I have been and the way I have acted:
“you don’t fool me, James”
That was referring to the motives for my absolute honesty and authenticity. My drive towards being authentic initially trampled over him and ignored any feelings or thoughts he had on the whole process; I might justify myself by saying that he was so angry over the “Dark Fantasies” that I had held secret that I couldn’t talk to him. However, the truth really is that I didn’t ask him or give him space to say how he felt because I was going to kill my testicles one way or another. If there wasn’t a surgeon who was going to do, I would strangle them myself.
What he said stung nonetheless.
“I like you more now”
He added after we moved tables and he’d been for a fag outside. I was quite emotional when he said that. I think it took him a lot to give me that affirmation and I appreciate it.
I think we are closer now that at any time in our relationship … which really highlights how far apart we’ve been throughout our relationship.
We cuddled for a while when we got home.
Eunuchorn 
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