The area around the base of my cock was quite sore yesterday, and by the evening it felt as though the scar itself was sore. When I examined the salary a little more closely, it looked as though I might have a blind boil forming just to the right of the scar on my cock, which was where it’s sorest. After using the anti-bac spray and the lavender ointment, I rubbed some Savlon antiseptic cream in.

Showering this morning I could get that the area is more sore than it has been. I wonder whether that’s just the nerves getting their act together? The boil appears to have reduced, so I have reapplied the Savlon antiseptic as well as the usual wound spray and lavender oil. I am also wearing compression pants again since applying compression to the area last night seemed to alleviate the ache.

As the day has wore on, I haven’t noticed any more aching. Checking things over, the boil appears to be reducing. I’ll put more Savlon on tonight and maybe tomorrow morning as well.

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Just before I went to sleep last night, my husband said “I love you”. He doesn’t say it often; after the PTSD trauma I needed to hear it, but I find that sometimes after taking about our relationship that I need to hear it also because it can feel as though so I hear from him otherwise it’s what’s wrong with me and us – I do need to hear that not everything is shit. I always say “I love you” before I go to sleep or before I leave the house … I never know when it will be the last time I get to say it or he gets to hear it.

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In the middle of the night I had the most marvelous stonking boner! I’m now aware of dreaming anything to get me so excited. This was a proper erection, of a hardness exactly like I used to have. It was so stiff and hard and engorged that it actually hurt the stitches. It felt wonderful. And I did nothing with it! I just stroked and enjoyed the feeling, but decided to keep it fit the weekend – I really don’t know how well my cock is going to work at the moment without testosterone, but even before my castration, my libido wouldn’t be as strong if I knocked one out too close to making love to my husband and maybe my husband and I might have some intimate time this weekend.

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There is a note on my GP documents area of the My NHS app:

This patient has been referred and has an appt some time in the future but Dr X has asked for this to be expedited urgently. Please see her notes below:
Regarding referral for James. He has now had his operation successfully and has returned to the UK. He is requesting testosterone please see my previous referral to yourselves form January. I would be very grateful for your urgent response to this. Many thanks,

Perhaps I’ll learn more on my phone call with her doctor tomorrow.

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Last update of the day: somebody asked if I still had any sort of libido, considering that in without testosterone from my testicles at the moment. So I put a bit of porn on and had a grope. My cock was getting firm and swollen, but it is a bit sore, however I was enjoying the porn. From what I’ve read, once castrated guys slowly lose interest in sex and porn … send I’m not there yet! Good! Maybe we’ll get to have a play this weekend, is things aren’t too sore and achy!