January 2025

  • Meditations on mediations

    My friend, Tacitus, who is yep months older than me as a Eunuch asked me a…

  • Last time with my counsellor

    Last time with my counsellor

    Thinking about couples counselling I’ve been putting some thoughts into what I want to say to…

  • Change is challenging

    Change is challenging

    Overwhelming change Yesterday I was chatting with a friend, when the penny dropped and I understood…

  • Understanding a past disappointment

    Understanding a past disappointment

    Its interesting that the more I learn about myself, the greater understanding I have of my…

  • Holocaust memorial day

    Yesterday evening, my husband and I watched the holocaust memorial service on the BBC. The Prince…

  • Reflections a year on – Part 3

    Reflections a year on – Part 3

    This post continues with my review of the kinds of things I considered before pressing on…

  • The face I’d rather not see

    The face I’d rather not see

    The husband had been low since last weekend. I didn’t have a clear idea if why.…

  • C*ck cages and castration

    C*ck cages and castration

    While I might have felt dysphoria for as long as I can remember (with varying strengths),…

  • Friday! At last!

    I feel really quite knackered this week. The husband has been in a mood and I…

  • A second coming out

    A second coming out

    This story was written at the suggestion of an online friend (who has since been converted…

  • Impromptu chat

    Impromptu chat

    We’d both been sleeping very badly, the husband because he was angry about something, me because…

  • Reflections a year on – Part 2

    Reflections a year on – Part 2

    This post continues with my review of the kinds of things I considered before pressing on…

  • Couples counselling concerns

    Couples counselling concerns

    What a rotten night! My head was busy – after the talk on Saturday, when my…

  • Unmasking Autism: Book Review (part 2)

    Continued from Unmasking Autism: Book Review. Chapter 3 – The anatomy of the mask The first…

  • Can we talk later please?

    Can we talk later please?

    Last night, the husband went up to bed early, so I sat and read for a…